Spent the day at the conference then headed back to Dallas with my best friend (who lives in Austin ) to go to a concert. Lots of talk and a few tears on the four hour drive, but it wasn’t nearly as bad as our earlier conversations about this mess had been. I discovered that I did have more hope than I thought. Maybe we could get through this. I had missed him these past two days and was looking forward to crawling into bed with him later that night.
I arrived home, he was asleep and I curled up next to him… a little drunk and tired, I quietly cried myself to sleep. I love him so much, I am so afraid to lose him yet I cant imagine life going on like this. How in the hell are we going to get through this? How can I love him so much after all he had put me through? Was it him I loved or the person he once was? Will he ever be the man I need him to be and will I ever forgive him?
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