Thank you for reading this blog... nothing has been more satisfying throughout this incredibly painful ordeal than knowing that people are reading this, that somebody has been where I am (or have already been) and that others know where I am heading and how I am feeling. I had no idea how common an affair was... or how damaging. I lost my father when I was 25 and found a sisterhood among other women who had lost a parent, I had no idea the impact it would have on my life nor did I realize how impossible it is for someone who had a living father to relate to me or comfort me in the way I needed most. I have found the same support during the aftermath of my husbands affair... I would have never guessed the impact it could have on a persons soul and would have never had the courage to repair mine had it not been for the support I have received through this blog and the other sites I belong to (see "resources" page). Unfortunately, my house is never clean anymore and my laundry is piling up around us because I have spent countless hours relating to complete strangers on the internet about the intimate details of my broken marriage and it is the only thing that feels good to me! :) I apologize if my language isnt as ladylike as it should be or if the details of my husbands affair and/or our sexual experiences are a bit too graphic... these entries are my actual daily journal entries, leaving out only identifying information, NOT any feelings or details.
I have to say that I have changed the names of myself and my husband, as well as most of the cities/places mentioned. I dont need my children EVER knowing about any of this!
