He left REALLY early this morning, but was sweet about it. He was a lot quieter than he usually is and made it a point to stop and kiss me several times. This is what I want. I want him to do little things like that to show me that I am the one on his mind.
After a busy day of summer acitivities with the kids, we were all exhausted and had a low key evening at home. When I am really tired is when I think the most. My mind seems to overcompensate for my body and has more energy that ever. I didn’t make anything special for dinner and ignored the fact that my kids needed a bath. He came home just before bed and offered to put the kids down while I took a nice relaxing shower, which he offered to join me in but I declined. I just couldn’t do it. I didn’t want to be near him, but he sensed that and wouldn’t leave me alone. He stayed near me, paying attention to me, until my crazy left and I allowed him to love me. I don’t think he realized what had happened, that his attentiveness is what got me out of it. I contemplated telling him, but he needs to figure it out on his own. He needs to look deeper into this and make his own realizations… I am so sick of realizing things for everyone all the time.
